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Monday, April 26, 2010

Crazy Love

Just wanted to share that if you have not heard of a book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love then you should check it out- probably about 10 bucks and well worth it.  Basically its all about falling in love with Christ and Christ being in love  with us.  This book by far has been the first book I can truly say has changed the way I look at life.  I think most of you would agree that there has never been a time in my life where I did not have a relationship with Jesus- but I can say that there have been "seasons" of change for sure.  I had a wonderful Mom and Dad who raised me in a Christian home and although I did not always agree with their "rules" (what kid does) I can't say how thankful I am that they always made sure that I had the knowledge I needed to build my relationship with Christ.  With that being said the biggest "faith" struggle I have is with past sins and choices I made in my life- it is hard for me to think that some of my choices can just be forgiven.  But over the past few months from reading this book and listening to KLOVE (Christian radio station) at work and in the car I have found myself letting go of those past sins, knowing that I am forgiven.  It also helped me put it into perspective though hearing a sermon at church and a comment from my sister in law which I will share with you.  It will make a lot of sense if you are a parent, that is when it sunk in for me.  Let's say that your child did something that really really hurt you, yet over time they realized that their actions were wrong and realized how much they hurt you.  Then they came to you and sat down and poured their heart out to you and acknowledged that they were wrong and saw their faults and asked for you to forgive them.  Let's also say that you saw how truly sorry they were and you granted them forgiveness.  How would you feel if then your child came to you, tearfully, everyday from then on out and kept telling you how sorry they were and kept asking if you could forgive them?  I thought about this and it broke my heart- I can't imagine Abbey or Kate feeling like they could not accept my forgiveness once I had told them all was forgotten.  I then realized that I had been doing the same thing with God- going to Him day in and day out begging for forgiveness of past sins- probably to the point of annoyance- but as a human we are stubborn!  I then also realized that I was in a way not having faith by doing this because we are told that when we truly admit our sins and ask to be forgiven we are- by not believing this it was hindering my relationship.  I could not grow because I could not get past my past!  I was also so caught up in confessing the same sins over and over again I did not have time to add new prayers or concerns, which I have a lot of, to the mix.  Then I heard this song on KLOVE and it pretty much put in into perspective- which it is funny because I had heard this song about a thousand times before I really really heard the words.  Anyways I am happy to say that I no longer struggle with my past like I used to because I set it free, it honestly was like a weight was lifted from my shoulders and I see things growing and happening in my life now because of it.  The song is by Sanctus Real and its called Forgiven- fitting huh?!  I will post the lyrics at the end.  But I just thought this was worth sharing because after talking about this with a few people I realized how many of us struggle with our past.  No one is perfect, nor are we expected to be that is why we have the chance at a relationship with Christ- to save us from ourselves!  Feel free to email me with questions or comments I would love to talk more! 

Well the past is playing with my head

And failure knocks me down again

I’m reminded of the wrong

That I have said and done

And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

I’m forgiven

I’m forgiven

And I don’t have to carry

The weight of who I’ve been

Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind

And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night

When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride

Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

When I don't fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere

When I don’t measure up to much in this life

Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘cause I'm forgiven

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Down for the count

Wow, its been a rough rough week!  Starting with this weekend the girls were both running fevers and as always Kate is cutting some teeth so you never know if she is truly sick or it is just from the teeth.  So then Friday night Abbey started running a fever and there had been a few sick kids at daycare so I took Abs to the take care clinic at Walgreens and we ended up waiting almost 3 hours.  We started at CVS but there were 7 people in front of us and the minimum time each person takes is 20 min, so we went across the street to Walgreens and ended up waiting just as long!  But Abs was very well behaved the whole time- sick and everything!  So we got in and got treated for strep, we called our doctor to see if we could get Kate on an antibiotic as well because she had strep last go around too- luckily he called a prescription in and they both got on antibiotics and were able to go back to daycare on Monday.  BUT then on Monday night I started running a fever!  I have never in 30 years of life had strep throat- but sure enough I went to the doctor on Wednesday and I too am now on an antibiotic.  Let me just say this about strep throat- I think its worse than labor pains and childbirth...maybe!  For real it is horrible, I haven't been this down and out in a long long time!  My fever finally broke today and my body stopped aching!  I was actually able to make dinner and go outside!  I can't wait to actually go back to work!  Insane I know.  Well I think we are all on the mend now so keep us in your prayers. 

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Picture Overload!

Wow its been a while since I have posted!  Last time I told you all that we were pulling Kate's pacifier cold turkey and we have been successful!  I hear from Kallie that she steals one from a little boy at daycare but other than that we are pacifier free!  Poor little Kate is getting some of her back teeth in and she is NOT happy about it!  Abbey is as funny as ever- one of her new talents is telling jokes for example "Knock Knock" Shane says "Who's there" Abbey says "Abigail Jane who just peed in the potty" or "Abigail Jane who just put on all of her clothes" basically what ever she has just accomplished!  So funny.  I have also picked up a new hobby- digital scrapbooking so I am sharing some of those with you as well.

A special picture of me and my sisters!
Can you guess who is who- I am in the middle, Kate is on the left and Abs is on the right
Again who is who?  Kate is on the left Abs on the right.
Abbey is on the top Kate is on the bottom
This was Kate instead of color Easter eggs she needed to eat one!
Dani and TJ were very helpful
On and egg mission
Mommy and her girls
Kate knew exactly what to do!
Abbey collected 2 baskets full of eggs
Our beautiful angels
Such a great picture of Kate
Grandma Ginger and KayKay
Grandpa Bryan and Kate

Friday, April 2, 2010

Pulling the plug!

Well this weekend, since we had an extra day, we decided it was time to take the pacifier away from Kate!  I have never been a fan of pacifiers but as a parent you know that they are sometimes the only thing that can calm a baby and your nerves!  We decided to do it this weekend because we love our daycare provider and wanted to try to make it easier on her by having this extra day with her at home, love you Kallie!!! 

So today Kate woke up, I popped the pacifier out handed her some milk went in and took a shower and she hasn't had it yet today, it is now going on 2 in the afternoon and she woke up at 7:30 this morning.  Now from what I remember with Abbey the nights are the worst- waking more, more crying jags and restless.  So we will see what the night brings.  We did take a long walk in the wagon this morning, which the girls LOVE.  This afternoon when the girls wake up we are going over to Aunt Kristy's to color eggs with Dani and TJ.

Well wish us luck on this adventure of parenthood- we did it cold turkey with Abbey so that is how we are starting out with Kate too- with the understanding that they are different in some ways but yet very very similar too!  I will update you soon.